OK,so me and my guy broke up.its ok ...no big deal,i mean everybody breaks up!wats new?and the best part of my break up was that it wasnt a very long relation...jst 2 years...nothing compared to how people survive aftr breaking up a 15 years marriage!and i was always careful...always was prepared for the worst...then why does this hurt so much?it wasnt working out for a long time!he was taking me for granted!so now i am better off without him.NO expectations being unfulfilled!No worries for the phone not ringing!No insecurities about him!Yet i feel like down in the dumps!is it becoz i feel lonely?no reason for that.i have numerous great freinds!

it surprised couple of friends when i told them i joined a gym.actually am blessed with gods grace or devils curse(however you may see it) with a high BMR:).so i dont have the perpetual problem of fat accumulation in the wrong places,neither does something that touches momentarily my tongue settle permanently on my hips.neither am i a health freak or looks conscious person.... so y did i join the gym.well it so happened that i took up a part time job on a temporary basis.my boss there,i noticed was pretty mean to me(yeah whats the deal???all bosses are mean)well mine was particularly mean to me. i later noticed that she was particularly sarcastic about my weight.it went to the limit that she totally brought in obscure references about it.like that day as i was drinking water from the office fountain she was just passing by and said"i y do u need to come here,u can always bring your water in ur extremely deep collarbone dent"!!!!!wasnt that dumb!!!!yeah and lame too.but shez my boss!later i found her she was stalking me. Apparently she was trying to find out what exactly my lifestyle was.... so to get rid of her i decided , i would have to put on a lot of calories.....so i joined the gym for the purpose!